My Love from the mountains
My Love to the sea
My Love on the beaches
My Love in the streams
My Love needs devotion
My Love needs a seed
My Love is the ocean
My Love is a weed
I want you home with me
My Love is a disease
Missing boy you've gone away
They said you'd be on 28 days
Hung out on strings of drug love laundry line
They took you in and pumped a different kind
A light came through is what we say
A darkness on Thanksgiving Day
All hands around a proud ballet
We all enjoyed your homecoming game
You held a stage you held my hand when we were we
Now floating in your chair you don't see me
But you made me promise not to tell them
As your eyes rolled away on your holiday
A light came through is what we say
A darkness on Thanksgiving Day
All hands around a proud ballet
We all enjoyed your homecoming game
We all enjoyed your homecoming game
We all enjoyed your homecoming game
We all enjoyed your homecoming game
We all enjoyed your homecoming
A dark woodsy house window and I found you there
You're never gonna stop me I just want to be clear
You can run as fast as your little girl feet will take you but
I will hunt you down I will hunt you down I will find you
Throw it on open and please join me outside
Swollen moon rising you can see where I'm hiding
I hiss through my teeth when I see your window open
I will take you down I will take you down I will take you down
The family's all gone you're alone in the dark an empty home no one will notice
Come play with me run through the trees I'll catch your legs and eat your bones
Your face at the window I just gave you a scare
Back away slow but I can still sense your blood there
You can wait it out long but you know I like to linger
I will wait for you I will wait for you I am waiting
Big Lake was a project I dreamed up in 2010. After furious writing sessions, I culled the songs to five and recorded this EP, mostly by myself in a cobbled-together home recording studio I built, literally spending every dime I had in doing so. It was a joyous experience, sandwiched by a grief that inspired it (more on that, below).
Since this project, I started Overlake with Tom Barrett (Overlake being a portmanteau of our two solo projects, not realizing there was a city near Seattle called Overlake). These days I’m involved with Aeon Station, Gramercy Arms, The Goddess Party, and my and Nick D’Amore’s project: Silence on the Other End, but the pull to flesh out and record more Big Lake remains ever-present.
A few years ago, I had the grand idea of re-recording this record, along with a bunch of new tunes I had written, for a ten-year anniversary release. Then COVID hit. And well, we all know what happened. I lost my mojo and my excitement along with it. As the last couple of years dragged on, and with a ten-year anniversary release fading deep into my memory, Nick had another idea to release this on Bandcamp so it lives at least *somewhere*! And so, he asked me to write up a little blurb for it. That was almost a year ago. I guess I kept putting this off because of that old jag about fear and letting things go, etc, etc.
Well, f*ck it. Here it is. I hope you enjoy it. Stream it, buy it, if you like CDs, you can get one of those too! They were all the rage in 2011, apparently. I even have glow-in-the-dark t-shirts. If you like that sort of thing.
I had a whole press release for this back when it came out in November of 2011, but I think this letter from 2014 to my friend Josh describes the intention of this well. If I do ever get around to re-recording everything and adding to this record in some way, I’ll give it the five-star treatment with press releases and all that stuff. For now, here’s the letter.
"Dear Josh,
I got your FB message... thank you so much. It's weird to hear someone talk about that record after so long. I still can't listen to it, but thank you so much for all your comments. To answer some questions.. You are right about the mood.. this record has been in me for a long time, but was truly instigated by my childhood friend's death. He taught me all about King Crimson and The Who and punk rock and played a BC Rich guitar. I was in my first rock band with him in high school. We went to the same college. We lost touch after that, but I knew he moved back up into the area, to PA, and was really depressed. This was only
a few years ago. I reached out to him on FB and asked if he wanted to visit JC... he said he'd love to.. he was going through a really hard situation.. but I never followed through.. and the next thing I heard, he was dead. I felt like I lost something huge. Not just him, but a part of my past.
The name Big Lake comes from the lake where I grew up, where WE grew up.. the songs are abstract pieces of my past, of growing up in a sleepy town.. and knowing that you can never get it back (and the pain that goes with it), the smallness, the innocence."
credits
released December 1, 2023
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Recorded by Lysa Opfer and Tom Unish.
Mastered by Joe Lambert, JLM Mastering
Drums by Tom Barrett
Additional guitars by Jeff Maiore
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